August 13, 2010
I'll just say it - I totally cried when Sydney Kate got out of the car yesterday to walk into her first day of Kindergarten. I was so nervous for her - worried that someone would not take care of her needs like mom - not sure I was ready to admit that my baby girl was old enough to attend "real" school. Back in the day I would have laughed at seeing some mom cry when she dropped off her child - not anymore - these emotions are real and in some weird way it changes things forever. We are on day two of school and I'm still wandering around my house like a lost puppy. I would have thought I would be celebrating my new found freedom - instead I find myself hating the silence. No Disney music dancing in my head all day - no playing babies all morning - and no one asking me constantly what we're doing next. I miss it - I really do - and I'm sad because I know it doesn't go backwards they just keep growing up. So while me and little Eli wander our house in search of sissy... she is loving life! SK got in the car yesterday with a ton of things to tell me about - she loves her teacher - she made all these new friends - she's the tallest one in her class - she didn't even get in trouble (her words not mine) - she carried her own lunch tray and didn't drop it - she ran really fast in her new fast running tennis shoes - she wrote her name with a perfect "K" in Kate - she was the cutest one because she had on pink (her words not mine).... I could go on but I won't for the sake of the size of this blog. My little girl loves Kindergarten but the best part to hear about yesterday was - "Mom I had fun but I really missed you today - I don't want to watch t.v. because I want to spend time with my family". She will always have my heart even when I move her into college.... I'm pretty sure Kindergarten might have been the easiest transition yet... in that case maybe I should start praying now for my emotional overload in 12 years (high school graduation) - heck maybe I should just start praying about dropping her off for first grade - only one milestone at a time is all I can possibly handle!